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2009-06-13T01:20:00.001-07:00

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Sore Eyes and Sore Throat

2007-12-23T19:23:00.000-08:00

I woke up early yesterday to attend the Novena dawn mass. I wore my usual jogging outfit and right after mass we headed straight to Tutuban to jog and also for our last minute shopping. The Tutuban Center was not that crowded compared to the Divisoria mall. I was able to buy gifts for my colleagues and some shirts and a pair of pretty little black shorts for me without any hassle at all. We ate at Mcdo in between stall hopping. The time I have spent in the queue was longer than the minutes I have alloted for my shirt shopping. I was getting impatient when I noticed the bald guy with the darkest nape I have ever seen (anti karma wushu shield) who was shouting at the clerk. He was arguing with the delivery boy. He wanted to cancel his order because apparently the chicken in his chicken mcdo meal was small. The clerk reasoned out that he should not have touched the chicken if he would not buy the meal. The bald guy asked the clerk to eat the chicken instead. The clerk was angry and has put the chicken in the trash. If I was the clerk, I would have spilled the gravy inthe bald guy's face for poor reasoning.

It was an hour or so before lunch when we decided to go home for I was anxious. I was bothered but did not know the reason behind it. When we were near Kalentong, I have asked mom if she knew if dad had locked the doors at the house, for we only brought the 1st key. I texted dad and he said that he did! That was it! Maybe i was anxious to go home because I had this weird disturbed feeling that something was not right. He was in Laguna with my brother and would stay there until 6PM. Instead of staying in our garage, we decided to kill time by going to Kamuning to buy empanaditas. We have asked our friendly neighbor to keep the pork refrigerated because it might get spoiled. We asked some of my uncle's helpers to keep our shopping bags in my uncle's house and left. Before going to Kamuning, we also had a stop over. I went to a salon to have my nails fixed. After the salon stop over, we went to Kamuning. WE bought 2 bilaos of empanaditas, 2 boxes of tart and 4 pcs of lumpiang ubod. Since it was only 1PM, we decided to walk. It was hot and the streets were covered with used plastic bags, bottles and junk food wrappers. The kids were playing along the side walk and did not mind the screeching sound of cars.

We were home by 3pm. We stayed in my uncle's house. We ate merienda with my uncle's helpers when mom has noticed that i have excessive discharge around my left eye. I washed it with running water and believed that it was gone. But alas, when dad picked us up my eye was still watery and was sore! I washed it for several times and it was still sore. I was planning on finishing my secret task for one of my maldita friends and for my project mate last night but because my left eye was getting heavier each minute I procastinated and slept.

When I woke the following day for the dawn mass, I could not open my eye. It was sore, it was heavy, it was wet and slimy. After mass, we went to Medical City. I was 'rushed' hehe to the emergency room. The diagnosis was sore eyes. (Btw, I had this funny and embarassing experience with the lady doctor. But she was really nice and I do not want to humiliate her. That's why I am keeping her dirty little secret.) She has prescribed an antibiotic eye drop, cold compress for my sore eye and BED REST for a week. Yahoo.
Oh no, Icar's last day would be on Thursday. I plan to present the video on Thursday but how???!?!! I have to be ok by Wednesday so that I can get my clearance from the same doctor on Thursday. If not, I will try to send the video via email. I guess I have to consult my friends first.

Oh well, tomorrow's Christmas and my left eye is sore. Ciao. Have a blessed Christmas and a bountiful new year guys!!!!

Singapore

2007-10-24T06:17:00.000-07:00

______________________________________________________

Hello Friends,

I got this message from a friend who now resides in Singapore. He used to work in IBM as an HR personnel assisting the xpats. He quit his job and decided his luck in the proverbial greener pasture. He went there knowing that he has no place to stay and source of income. But because of sheer luck and determination, he is now filthy rich (joke) and has landed a high paying job.

I guess he just wants to help me as he has always done and has given me hope through his story and his message. J (He is cussing because he hates numbers. Please understand.)

From:	Mark Adrian
Date:	Wednesday, 29 August, 2007 9:59 AM
Subject:	d*** t*!
Message:	D***!!! Yung kakilala ko, si Eloise, nasa HR Recruitment and hinahandle niya ay SAP knowledgeable people. Mag recruit tayo ng mga taga accenture inculding you who wish to work in Singapore. Sinasabi ko sayo, 3,000 SGD (mababa na 'to for IT dito) and 1,000 SGD lang ang cost of living monthly. 1 SGD = 30 pesos. Go na kayo dito! Send your resume and write na you were referred by Mark Montano (sira ka, wala akong cut dito! All I want is tumulong). Email her at ****@pgi.com.sg Okay? Okay naman ako dito. Hindi pala. Pucha, aside from HR Relocations ako, I do Financial Management which really sucks! You know - balance sheet reconciliation! Punyeta, nakakainit ng ulo. Haha. O bye bye muna. Bawala actually naka-tanga dito sa office ko eh. May cam all over the place. Huhu.

I planned not to share this so that I would not have to compete in getting slots. I decided that I would just wait for them to call me before I hand them referrals. I did get a call last Monday. Unfortunately, I missed it because I have unintentionally left my cel in my desk. L (Karma is real time).

I have given this a serious thought. I just can’t imagine that because of selfishness I am thinking of not giving this information to my friends who are not only worthy but have also been with me through the good and not-so-good times. (Acting Workshop to oh!)

This is my way of thanking you.

Btw, I would appreciate if you don't forward this message to others; this message was sent only to my friends!

Thanks and God bless,

Taga-Loob

The Love Guru

2007-09-28T21:16:00.000-07:00

Tanong: May tanong pala ako. maiba naman. Mayroon kase akong kaibigang humihingi ng payo ukol sa kanyang iniirog. Syempre sa akin pa talaga nagtanong, hello lang? Ganito un, me gusto syang nilalang tapos itong nilalang na ito na itago natin sa pangalang Kokey ay parang torpe pero ang malupit nun eh may karibal itong kaibigan ko kay kokey na mejo agresibo. Ano daw ba ang maipapayo ko. Hahaha, jusko.

Ewan ko torpe lang daw eh. Madami bang klase ng torpe? Baka torpeng manligaw? Wehehe.

Sige sugar momma na lang ang code name ng karibal kase sabi ng fwendsheep in distress ko eh matanda na daw ito at 30+ na ang age pero stable na sa work pede ng magpamilya mga ganun ba. Kaya naisip ko din na kaya ito aggressive eh dahil kailangan na nya talaga! Wehehe.

Characters:

Kokey - torpe

Esperanza- fweendsheep in distress

Hot momma - aggressive, 30+

Mga Sagot:

BJ: teka nagdamoves na ba tong fwensheep mo? mga pasimpleng paglalandi? hohoho. kase kahit torpe nmn tong si kokey, dpt may signs na sya na pinakita kung gus2 nya rin tong si fwensheep in distress...kung merong mga pinakitang senyales na "Can this be love kokey's feeling right now," edi go ahead be agresibo and fightfightfight hot momma... pero kung wala nmn, ewan ko na :D

DYOSA: hehehe dahil sa request ni manay, magrereply ako.

sounds family yung scenario kasi parang minsan sa makulay kong buhay ay nakatagpo din ako ng isang Kokey at ng isang Sugar momma... Not necessarily Sugar momma sa age pero sa scenario..

o sige na nga ang Kokey na yun ay walang iba kundi si Datu.

depende kasi yun manay, kung sureness na sha na gusto sha ni Kokey at malakas ang loob nya, pwede naman nya direchahin si Kokey e (parang mga forbidden question sa Magic 99.9 ganun..). ang downside naman kasi nun, baka naman itong si Kokey e may pagkasensitive type na ayaw nang pinangungunahan baka mahurt ang ego.

pakidescribe naman po kung anong level na ba itong pagkagusto ni Kokey kay Esperanze vice versa, kasi mejo naimagine ko naman yung ke Sugar Momma

YAOMING: Ganito lang. kung sa pagmatanda na sya eh magiging wat ifs ng buhay nya si kokey. eh di go go go! Kumendeng na sya ke kokey.

Pakipot approach. hmmm. magkitikitext sya wid kokey, sweet messages and all, tapos, kwentuhan lahat ng kaibigan abt kokey. Magpatukso abt kokey. Pero yung ngiting aso (hindi dugs) pag tinutukso. Tapos, denial ha! Wag kakalimutan. tapos.teka nangangati ako sa pag-code ngayon.

Case kokey's feelings

When gusto ni kokey kay esperanza.

Well and good! Kasalan na!

When ayaw ni kokey pala kay esperanza.

Unti unting bawasan ang tetetetext. Tapos, maghanap na ng ibang gwapo.

When others.

Pagdasal na wag ke sugar mama mapunta si kokey. Sama eh noh?

Endcase!

Lider: Ito ang masasabi ko.. Nakaranas narin ako ng ganyan dati AT ito ang mapapayo ko.

1. torpe kamo si KOKEY at di naman alam ni esperanza na gusto siya nito diba?? Well dahil sa gusto niya si kokey. pakita niya na gusto niya si kokey sa pinakadiscreet way na maiisip niya. tama si abby.. kitikitext niya. pasmile ng konti.. i-miss call sa cel, pumapasok pa ba yan sa school? Tawagan niya tas kunyari mangongopya sya ng notes dahil di nya nakopya sa school... turuan niya sa assignment.... pag kakain makisabay.. kung may problema si kokey make herself available everytime. kung may common friends sila, kunchabahin ni esperanza ang mga friends na ibuild-up sya kay kokey through making kwento na ang bida si esperanza.. Mga ganun ba... wag niya dapat i-let go yung time na meron para ipafeel kahit papano kay kokey na special sya sa kanya. di naman ito pagigign aggressive kasi wala ka naming ginagawang masama.. esperanza is just being "nice" to kokey.. at kung magevolve si kokey at magustuhan sya nito.. edi OK.. pero kung hinde naman maging OK ang resulta at lumayo sa knaya si kokey.. well ok na rin atleast e naranasan nyang gawan ng maganda si kokey at naexperience nya maging "friend" ito kahit papano...

di na uso ang pagpapacute ngayon at pagaantay.. (sowee maweng kawen) hehe... dahil maraming BUWITRE sa paligid at konti nalang ang lalaki sa mundo na papasok sa "standards" ng bawat babae.. (syempre exclude na rito ang dumaraming bading/kangkang-gamol/dugs). E sa nangyari pa ngayon na pasok sa standard ni esperanza at sugar momma si kokey.. e kelangan na makipagsapalaran..

kung iniisip naman ni esperanza na magiging cheap sya sa tingin ng iba.. tingin ko hinde.. magiging "good friend" lang naman sya for kokey..

good relationship starts with good friendship... naks.. hehe

Ate E: maging agresibo din sya

Ate E: send feelers to kokey

Ate E: kase malay mo sya ang gusto ni kokey

Ate E: kaso lang baka madala si kokey sa ka-agresibuhan nung isa

Ate E: pero kung sya talaga ang gusto ni kokey kakalimutan muna nya ang pagiging torpe

Ate E: sabihin mo send feelers but not to the point na sya na nanliligaw

Ate D: anong feelers?

Ate E: paramdam

Ate D: pano?

Ate E: sa tingin

Ate E: nyahahaha

Ate E: kausapin nya

Ate E: magkwentuhan sila ng mga view sa buhay-buhay

Ate E: mga ganun

Ate E: hahahaha

Ate E: syempre

Ate E: that's the most logical thing to do

Ate E: sayang yung chance kung gusto sya ni kokey di ba?

Ate E: ang haba naman ng hair ni kokey

KAWEN:

Yaya: manay kawen

Yaya: are u busy?

Kawen: hi manay! may kt ako ng 3 pm manay

Kawen: y o y

Yaya: ahh

Yaya: wala lang

Yaya: gusto ko lang hinging advice mo dun sa inemail ko

Yaya: sige later na lang kita kukulitin

Yaya: goodluck sa brown bag

Kawen: ahh

Kawen: hahaha

Kawen: muka ba ako reliable?

Kawen: kse ako

Kawen: alam mo naman sa conservative side pa den

Kawen: antay lang kung ano move ni kokey

Kawen: kesa siya gumawa ng move(esperanza)

Yaya: kaya nga gusto ko marinig lahat ng payo nyo

Yaya: kase diverse kayo

Yaya: hahaha

Yaya: kakatuwa

Kawen: kse mas ok pa den na guy gaagwa ng 1st move, kse pano na sa future dapat lalake ang nag dedesisiyon

Kawen: hahaha

Kawen: paste mo na langs a mail manay

Kawen: mag kkt muna ako

Kawen: hohoho

Kawen: additional lang: dun niya masusubukan kung tlgang gusto siya ni kokey o matetempt siya kay sugar momma

Kawen: kung kunwari sila na mas ok na paglaban niya, kaya lang hindi pa sila eh.. eheh.. la lang opinyon lang

Kawen: the best eh mag pray

Kawen: :-)

Tanong: eto may second love scenario ako...

Karakter (maaaring base sa tunay na buhay ng piksyon):

girlalu na hindi nmn madalas ma-attract

boy1

boy kabit

conflict:
naaattract tong si girlalu kay boy kabit ngunit happily attached na itong si girlalu kay boy1. ngunit itong si boy kabit alam na attached na sya ngunit isinambit na "pagisipan mo girlalu, iwanan mo na si boy1." natulala si girlalu at nagulat sa sarili na sya ay kinikilig.

ang tanong ay bakit ang puso tatsulok pala? ano ang limitasyon ng paglalandi? HOHOHO!

Yaya: Bj, ke boy1 sigurado si girlalu. Kay boykabit di sya sigurado. Kase what if maging sila girlalu nga at boykabit, may guarantee ba na di nya din ito lolokohin? At malay nya weakness lang talaga ni boykabit ang maghanap ng may sabit?

Kung mahal ni boykabit si girlalu, di nya ito sasabihan na iwanan si boy1. Sa tingin ko, di sya magdedemand ng ganun o di nya un dedemonyohin ng iwan mo na yan. Kase isipin mo na lang kunwari may kaibigan ka na bang nagsabi sayong iwan mo ang bestfriend mo at sya na lang ang gawin mong bestfriend? Ibang sitwasyon at ibang relasyon pero pinilit kong ikonek. Whehehe.

Lider: Ang masasabi ko nga lang dyan jazz. kalimutan na ni girlaloo si boy kabit.. ang mga ganyang gumugulo sa buhay ng may karelasyon na ay dpat nilalayo na sa isipan at di na ineentertain pa... maghanap nalang si boy kabit ng babaeng walang sabit para ang kanilang pinaplanong pagmamahalan ni new girl ay walang puslit.. anoha ryhme ako! Hahaha

DYOSA: comment ko naman jan maweng jazz, pwedeng yung kilig kasi e isa hanggang 3 liguan tapos wala na... :) so pwedeng kikay attack lang yun, wala nang mas malalim pa... :)

ok lang naman makipagflirt basta wag ka lang magpapahuli, ginagawa din naman ng mga boys yan. :) sa paglubog naman ng araw ay alam nyo naman na iniisip nyo rin ang isa't isa at ang the others ay pang ilang minutong kilig lang...

Flu

2007-09-18T23:55:00.000-07:00

I am sick. I have this terrible flu for days now. I have consulted a doctor and she said that it was not long ago that I went to see another doctor because of the same condition. Aside from antibiotics, she advised me to get a flu vaccine after fully recovering. This would prevent me from getting sick. After all, prevention is better than cure!
On my second day of sick leave, my manager texted me and asked me to see a doctor for check up. I have also received a text message from my teammates asking me about work. I guess, I really need to go back tomorrow. Sigh..

Guess what? I just finished reading 11 minutes by Paolo Coelho. I am now starting to read Five People you meet in Heaven and I have just met the first person! Whew..

I have also added a cbox in my account. But i can't put it in the right position. I want it at the left/right side of my blog. I am not really into web designing and stuff (if that's what you call it).

Go to go... I need to take my medicines. Ciao

I miss

2007-09-15T07:02:00.000-07:00

Peeps
my Ate Jen
Peaches
Brutus sistas
Ling Friends
Athena batchmates
Tita Baby
Lola
the malditaz
Ate Engkuts
Barkadahang Sports
my cousins Liza, Mitchie and Ian
my Puckmates
Anya and Tome
1-10

Once upon a time routine
taking the MRT from Boni to Quezon Ave.
hanging out with my friends at AS Steps
eating isaw near ICTUS
going to the Library to sleep
skipping class to tambay
stalking Tomokai
walking from AS Steps to Philcoa
studying late for the exams
leaving my papers in one of my teachers' pigeonholes
not going to school on Wednesdays
sitting in one of Maci's classes
buying bluebook
eating squidballs near GT
strolling at Greenbelt with Lolo Worr and Papa Cologne
initiating chat conferences with the Malditaz and Barkadahang Sports
playing Badminton and Bowling with my Barkadahang Sports friends

Places
UP
Makati
Eastwood
HTA
DBS
UST
our house at Quintos
Greenbelt walkway
MRT station
Jac's mansion
Eky's place at San Juan
Binondo
our Old house
our store

Food
isaw
sisig sa tinapay
Mr. Chips
Squid balls
Cotton Candy
Baked Mussels

Foot Long

2007-09-09T04:04:00.000-07:00

Lagi akong late sa ofis. Kahit 7:30A o 10:00A pa ang shift ko. Ito ung isa sa mga bad habits ko na di ko maalis alis. Kainis, May log sheet pa naman kame sa team na ako pa mismo ang nagpasimuno. I am a bad role model.. tsk. tsk. Sabi nila pag daw malapit ang ofis o eskwelahan sa bahay ang tendency ng tao e magpalate talaga dahil malapit lang naman. Ganito na ako ng highschool. Ganito pa din ba ako hanggang ngayon?
Kaya isang araw patakbo takbo na ako nang tinawag ko ang isang jeep. Kainis ulet! Kase ung pinara kong jeep eh ung jeep na iniiwasan ko dahil: una, ung anak ng drayber na babae na kasama sa biyahe ay parang aadik adik at super stenchy. Pangalawa, ang apo nya na ang teyorya ko ay anak ng aadik adik nyang anak ay über kulit (Nung babaha baha sa munisipyo - take note: ambon - baha, ulan - dagat, bagyo - karagatan. To think na sa munisipyo pa ito, ang sentro ng kapangyarihan sa isang lungsod. Anyway, ang batang ito na nagswimming ata sa baha ay kumakandong kandong pa sa mga pasahero. Ginugulong gulong pa nya ang pera nyang isinawsaw nya sa maputik, mabaho at maipis na tubig sa muka ng pasaherong inaasar asar nya). Pero laking gulat ko dahil sobrang behaved sya at nasa unahan sya sa tabi ng kanyang lolo at lola (oha! tama ang aking educated guess). Nagtaka talaga ako kase tahimik sya at di sya nakikihalubilo sa mga pasahero. Habang iniisip ko ang dahilan, bigla akong nakarinig ng malakas na sigaw na parang nanggaling sa isang taong walang ngipin. Sa nanay nya. Nagwawala wala ito at humahagulgol. Kinakaway kaway ang kamay. Pilit na gustong tumalon sa jeep. Nakita ko ang mga pasahero na nagtatakip na ng ilong at bumubulong bulong pa. Kahit na ilang beses ko na itong nakakasama sa biyahe e, ngayon ko lang nakita ang pagtatantrums nya. SAbi nya gusto na nyang bumaba. Tinitignan ko ang tatay nya. Parang walang naririnig. Ang mga pasahero naman na matatanda ay kumakatok na at sinasabihan ang drayber na may baba. Siguro dahil hindi nila alam na related ang dalawa. Siguro narindi na din ang tatay nya na pinababa sya sa Rustan's express. PEro di naman bumaba. May hinihingi sya. Sabi nya gusto nya ng footlong. Nag abot ang tatay ng 120Pesos at pinababa na sya. Pero nagalit sya sabi nya di daw kasya ang bente pesos (Siguro di nya nakita ang 100 na kasama). Nakukuliling na siguro ang tatay nya at binawe ang pera. Sabi bumaba na lang daw ito sa jeep dahil di nya alam kung ano na ang gagawin nya dito. Di nya alam kung san sya lulugar. Lalung syang naghimutok at naglupasay na sa lapag. Nagpupumilit bumaba. Siguro malapit na un sa tunnel nang iniabot ng drayber ang 140 Pesos ulit at sabay sabing ang footlong 40 Pesos lang. Hindi isang libo. Kinuha nya ang pera galing sa kanyang tatay at mahigpit na hinawakan. At bigla syang nakatulog. Siguro nagpapapansin lang sya. Nang malapit na ako sa ofis dali dali akong bumaba. Natakot pa ako kase baka biglang magising at masipa ako.
Nang pababa na ako sa escalator. Naisip ko, ang hirap ng buhay ng mamang drayber na iyon. Sa dami ng sinusuportahan nya, ung anak nya isa pa sa mga naging pasan nya... Kahit na ayoko ng sumakay ulit sa jeep nya, naisip ko na sa pagsakay kong iyon, sa pagbayad ko ng pamasahe ay natutulungan ko sya sa kanyang hanapbuhay.
Hindi man ako ang pinakaswerteng tao sa balat ng lupa o pinakamapalad sa sa ofis o kahit sa klase o kahit sa mga pasahero kanina sa jeep na iyon, hindi din naman ako ang pinakamalas. Mayroon pa rin akong dapat ipagpasalamat sa araw araw.

Nang hapon na iyon naisip kong bumili ng footlong.

36 CHRISTIAN WAYS TO REDUCE STRESS

2007-09-01T02:48:00.000-07:00

An Angel said, "Never borrow from the future. If you worry about what may happen tomorrow and it doesn't happen, you have worried in vain. Even if it does happen, you have to worry twice."

1. Pray
2. Go to bed on time.
3. Get up on time so you can start the day unrushed.
4. Say No to projects that won't fit into your time schedule, or that will compromise your mental health.
5. Delegate tasks to capable others.
6. Simplify and unclutter your life.
7. Less is more. (Although one is often not enough, two are often too many.)
8. Allow extra time to do things and to get to places.
9.. Pace yourself. Spread out big changes and difficult projects over time; don't lump the hard things all together.
10. Take one day at a time.
11. Separate worries from concerns. If a situation is a concern, find out what God would have you do and let go of the anxiety. If you can't do anything about a situation, forget it.
12. Live within your budget; don't use credit cards for ordinary purchases.
13. Have backups; an extra car key in your wallet, an extra house key buried in the garden, extra stamps, etc.
14. K.M.S. (Keep Mouth Shut). This single piece of advice can prevent an enormous amount of trouble.
15. Do something for the Kid in You everyday.
16. Carry a Bible with you to read while waiting in line.
17. Get enough rest.
18. Eat right.
19. Get organized so everything has its place.
20.. Listen to a tape while driving that can help
improve your quality of life.
21. Write down thoughts and inspirations.
22. Every day, find time to be alone.
23. Having problems? Talk to God on the spot. Try to nip small problems in the bud. Don't wait until it's time to go to bed to try and pray.
24. Make friends with Godly people.
25. Keep a folder of favorite scriptures on hand.
26. Remember that the shortest bridge between despair and hope is often a good "Thank you Jesus."
27. Laugh.
28. Laugh some more!
29. Take your work seriously, but not yourself at all.
30. Develop a forgiving attitude (most people are doing the best they can).
31. Be kind to unkind people (they probably need it the most..
32. Sit on your ego.
33. Talk less; listen more.
34. Slow down.
35. Remind yourself that you are not the general manager of the universe
36. Every night before bed, think of one thing you're grateful for that you've never been grateful for before.

Btw, I did not take the scheduled ‘sick’ leave last Friday. I even overstayed in the office… whatalife!

SL

2007-08-30T04:22:00.000-07:00

What does it mean? It may stand for

sick leave
scheduled leave
salary letter

Now let's connect the dots...

At around 4PM today, I have received a message from a friend that the salary letter was already posted in the mcla website. I was excited and printed one copy so that I can take it home for my parents to see as soon as I saw my name. I was shocked because it was more than what I have expected. But it does not mean that I am happy. It just made me ponder on things that I have been trying to avoid since I have last seen Harry Potter. Would this be the sign? What will happen to me? What does your salary tell you? Does it measure everything?

I heard from the same friend that (some of) the newly promoted may have twice the increase that we had. Wow. I can't help but belittle myself. But I thought that it was just envy that I was feeling. Instead of being happy for my promoted friends why am I sulking? I don't want to brag but I have been offered more than what I will be receiving by another company. So would that end the war inside my head? NO! Every time you see your colleagues, that would remind you of your 'misfortune'. You can't help but compare, how come he is getting more than what I have when I am more than skilled and dedicated than him?

From the time I received the bad news from my meneger, I vowed to take an unannounced leave on August 31 - the fateful day when the HR releases a memo. It would look to everyone that I was sick, thus making it my last sick leave for the fiscal year but the truth is it was scheduled....

To be continued

Kulangot

2006-01-12T00:32:00.000-08:00

Ang ilalahad na istorya ay batay sa tunay na pangyayari.
Babala: Huwag gayahin!

Isang kahindik-hindik na pangyayari ang naganap sa isang magandang babae kagabi sa ganap na 11:30. Napag-alaman na ang babaeng ito ay galing sa gateway dahil nanonood ng Narnia kasama ang kanyang mga kaibigang maldita. Habang naglalakad ang babae pauwi sa apartment na kanyang tinutuluyan ay may nakita syang lalaking nangungulangot....Akala nya ay wala lang kaya't sya ay patuloy sa kanyang paglalakad...Mayamaya ay lumapit sa kanya ang lalaki at akmang ipapahid sa kanya ang kamay na ginamit sa kanyang pangungulangot...henghenghengheng(sound effects po yun sa mga crime scenes...demo ko na lang mag nagkita tayo..hehehe...)....umiwas ang babae at buti na lang sya ay nakajacket at hindi naipahid kanya mismo ang kulangot...sa kaba ay tumakbo ang babae pauwi at pinagmumura ang lalaking adik yata...sa sobrang inis ay nagulat ang kanyang mga hausmates dahil pabagsak nyang isinara ang kanyang pinto...at ikinuwento ang mga nangyari sa kanyang hausmates....

narito po ang ating panayam sa biktima:

Reporter : Musta na po kayo?
Biktima: Hindi okay. $#@$&^#! putakti! kinabahan ako at nandiri sa nangyari...Kung alam ko lang na ganon ang gagawin nya, sana ay nangulangot din ako para makaganti at ipinahid ko din sa kanya. Iyon ang ikinakasama ng aking loob, hindi ko sya napahiran ng kulangot...hindi ako nakaganti!!!! Letseng lalaking yun!!!
R: Ano na po ang inyong ginawa pagkatapos?
B: Pagkadating ko sa bahay ay hinubad ko agad ang aking jacket at ito ay ibinabad ko. Naligo na din ako ng alcohol. Pumunta sa isang tabi, nagdasal ng ritual para kulamin ang masamang lalaking yun...May natutuhan ako sa nangyari...Kelangan maging handa...kung may nakita kang nangungulangot ay mangulangot ka din para kung sakaling ipahid sa iyo yun may ipapahid ka din sa kanya...
R: Maraming salamat po magandang binibini.

At iyan po ang buong pangyayari hinggil sa kahindik-hindik na krimeng naganap. Eto po si JUliu Babay, nag-uulat....

Out of office

2006-01-08T22:22:00.000-08:00

Mabuhay!

I am currently on vacation and will be back on January 11, 2006 (Manila Time).

For important/urgent matters, please contact my ket
(pusakal@hellokitty.com).

Thanks and Have a nice day!

Regards,
Dianne :)

I finally get to do things I have been dreaming of even for just 2 days! I started to blog again, update my friendster account, read books (UNIX and ABAP - mind you), watch dvds and vcds, and have my guitar lessons with my mom and brother. I am actually waiting for him to arrive from school before we could have today's seesion. Yipee! Can't wait!
I just found out that Kuya Dondon, the other half of Dd's in motion is getting married. She wants to have a garden weddding here in the Philippines late this year. She will also treat us on her birthday at Boracay! Nyahay... Oh no! Two pc or pajama? Hohoho.
I woke up at 10am, ate lunch at 12, watched tv, surfed the net, and checked my company mail. Wrong move. Now I am forced to enjoy my vacation even if I forgot to submit my time sheet and GDD. Crap! When I get back on Wed, I'll be bombarded with all the 'suppressed' utos from my ket. Nga pala, my ket is also asking for my PFF (it's some sort of an evaluation), which means I have to rate myself, enumerate my accomplishments and stuff! And he wants it done by Wed lunch time. Good thing I was able to see this before I return, otherwise I would not be able to submit any to him...

USAPANG LASING

2006-01-04T21:40:00.000-08:00

Ang ret ay nakatanggap ng 4 na high na tiket. Ngunit sa kasamaang palad, hindi nya alam ang kanyang gagawin dito. Tinanong ni ret ang ket nya. Ito ang naging usapan nila.
RET: pano pala gagawin dito...
KET: Hanapan mo muna ng IDOC...
Hinanapan na nga ng IDOC ni ret ang mga ito. Ngunit wala itong nakita. Nang sya ay tanungin ng ket nya...
KET: Anong nangyari?
RET: WALA!
KET: What do you mean na WALA! (Sa mga panahong ito, nanlilisik na ang mata nya...)
RET: Wala akong nakitang corresponding IDOC...

Sa Planetang Dynpro:
Babae: Uwi na ako.
Dugs: Hatid na kita.
Babae: Wala akong kotse.
Dugs: Sabayan kita.
Babae: WALA akong bahay!

Sa Krysatala PArt 1
Gerl: masarap ba sandwits?
Boy: uu naman
Gerl: hohoho
Gerl: kc nalaglag ata yung ham nun sa lapag e :-D
Boy: waaaaaaaa

Sa Krystala PArt 2:
Lalake: nung last prodval ko eh nagkaroon nang ibang trace
Lalake: sabi nila bat daw ako pumunta sa ibang tcode na d ko naman sinama sa chg ticket
Lalake: pinagpapaliwanag ako
Babae: pumunta ka nga ba dun?
Lalake: sabi ko anu papaliwanag ko e d ko naman un pinuntahan...
Lalake: manigas sila
Lalake: haha
Lalake: sabi ko get freeze!
Lalake: haha
Babae: gaga
Lalake: hehe... you are judging me... i am not a book!
Lalake: sabi ko
Lalake: haha
Babae: longyo ka

Sa Krystala PArt 3:
Gerl: kc baka tuksuhin na naman tayo
Boy: hahhaah
Gerl: hehehehe
Boy: wag mong pansinin un
Gerl: hindi nga
Gerl: nahihiya lang ako para sayo
Gerl: wahahahha
Boy: hahhaa

Kausap ang matandang oogod-ogod!
ulyanin: hohoho..mali-mali akobata: y o y?
ulyanin: muntik kong mabigay # mo sa travel agency
ulyanin: kase d ko kabisado akzenchur #
ulyanin: tiningnan ko sa coling card mo
ulyanin: pati local mo sinabi ko
ulyanin: hohoho

Ang susunod na pag-uusap ay maselan. Patnubay ng magulang ay kailangan.
Ako: lolo worr?
Ako: youre still here?
Ako: y o y?
Pegasus: oo bakit
Pegasus: sabay tayo uwi
Ako: wolo
Pegasus: !
Ako: ewan ko sayo
Ako: nang-iiwan ka naman e
Ako: pareho kayo ni markmark
Ako: magsama kayo
Ako: hmf..tswe
Pegasus: sabay tayo :-(
Ako: ganyan naman kayo
Ako: kilala nyo lang ako pag me kelangan kayo
Ako: pero pag wala na kong silbi
Ako: iiwan nyo na lang ako sa ere
Ako: anong klase ka?
Pegasus: hahahaahah
Pegasus: babangon ako at dudurugin kita pegasus!
Pegasus: kelan kita iniwan!!!!!!!!
Pegasus: kelan kaya kita iniwan!!!!!!!!!
Pegasus: ha!
Pegasus: ha!
Pegasus: ha!!!!??!!?!?
Pegasus: nung isang araw
Ako: iniwan mo ko
Ako: wolo
Ako: nasan ka ng kailangan kita
Ako: gano kadalas ang minsan
Ako: wag mong buhayin ang bangkay!
Pegasus: hahahahahah
Pegasus: nu ka!!!!
Pegasus: sabi mo sabay ka ke mark mark
Pegasus: !!!!!
Ako: walang matigas na tinapay sa mainit na kape
Ako: pinapaasa ko lang sya
Pegasus: sino pnaka maliit na tao sa buong mundo?
Ako: si mahal at si mura
Ako: teka lilibre mo ba ko pamasahe?
Ako: hehe
Ako: wala akong tiket e
Pegasus: magkalimutan na tayo!
Pegasus: ah heheheh
Ako: sige
Ako: sabi mo yan
Ako: ikaw ang nagsalita
Ako: tapusin na natin ito
Pegasus: sa mrt ka rin
Pegasus: 1 lang tikt ko
Ako: ewan ko sayo
Ako: wala ng bawian
Pegasus: hahhahah
Pegasus: :-(
Ako: galit tayo
Pegasus: kailangan kita
Pegasus: nyahahaha
Ako: hindi totoo yan
Ako: sorry worr, magkaibigan lang tayo
Ako: hilig ko talaga babae
Ako: hanap ka na lang iba jan
Ako: yung gugustuhin ka din
Ako: pinilit ko pero wala talaga akong maramdaman para sayo e
Ako: platonic lang talaga
Pegasus: ganun ba mabuti...babae ako talaga...tinatago ko lang sa katawang lalake
Pegasus: day....uwi na tayo....

Paskong Pasiklab!

2006-01-04T04:03:00.000-08:00

Ang Pagtatagpo

2005-11-09T03:37:00.000-08:00

Sinundan kita nang ika’y lumabas. Pansamantalang tumigil ang mundo ko nang ako’y iyong tinignan. Pinagbuksan mo ako ng pinto. Hindi mo ito binitawan hangga't hindi ako nakakalalabas. Pilit kong hinaplos ang bahagi ng pintong hinawakan mo. Kailan ko mararamdaman ang paghaplos ng iyong kamay sa akin? Kailan mo kaya hahawakan ang aking kamay?

Una kang pumasok sa elebeytor. Sumunod ako. Ito na marahil ang pinakamahabang dalawang minuto ng aking buhay. Pilit kong pinigilan ang aking sariling pagmasdan ang iyong magandang mukha. Kailan ko makakayanang matitigan ka nang walang nagbabawal? Kailan mo kaya ako pagmamasdan at mapapansin?

Pinauna mo akong lumabas. Naglakad ako papalayo saiyo. Maliliit na hakbang ang ginawa ko para magkasabay tayo. Kailan kaya tayo magkaksabay maglakad? Kailan mo naman kaya ako hahabulin?

Sumakay ka ng FX. Sinundan kita. Dinukot mo ang celphone mo sa bag at tinawagan ang gerlpren mo. Masaya kang kausap ito at narinig ko pang kayo ay kakain. Tuwang tuwa ang tinig sa kabilang linya nang sabihin nyang sya pa ang manlilibre. Kailan kaya tayo magkaksabay kumain? Kailan mo kaya ako maililibre?

Hanggang kalian magiging ganito ang ating pagtatagpo? Hanggang kailan ako mangangarap at mananaginip? Hanggang kailan ako magdadasal na sana kahit isang segundo ay alam mong buhay ako. Hanggang kailan ako magiging anino lamang?

Cable Car

2005-10-21T20:36:00.000-07:00

We went to Cable Car at 9:00 pm for the much awaited team building of our glamorous project. We were I can say, fashionably late. Some project mate even called up to ask if we were attending. They couldn't start, I guess without us.. ehem...
When we arrived, I immediately without hesitation went to get food. I was really really hungry. I wasn't even speaking to any of my kasabay sa car (sosyal!?) I was btw with my master, mayor vi, my ket (it was his car which was alarmingly very very clean...hmmm...) and my pseudo team mate - the singer. As my master would say, 'I have never been this hungry in my entire life.' I tried the baked mussels, fish fingers, chicken wings, bbq, sisig rice which was really good and brownies for dessert. I was about to have my last spoonful of sisig rice when the emcees announced that we were going to start the 1st and last game. They said that initially there were three games but due to lack of resources, we would only have one - beer drinking. I was so surprised when they called the 1st contestant. It was pretty li'l me. I don't want to be a 'kj' so I got up, went 'onstage' while chewing the rubber like bbq. They first called in the girls who would be the contenders (i like the sound of that word!). The girls would have to pick 4 other guy contestants. My team mates were mayor vi, two from basis, edongers, and Carlo. At first, I couldn't understand the mechanics of the game because it was noisy, the crowd was getting excited and I was still hungry. One by one the contestants should finish the beer of their choice 'on stage' kung hindi naman babalik ang nasabing contestant sa pila at ang susunod ang pupunta sa harap upang ubusin ang beer. Kailangan maubos ang beer kung hindi pa ubos, babalik ulit nang babalik sa harapan hanggang maubos ang beer. (Wolongyo, naubusan ako ng ingles dun a...anoha?) My cousin who was the organizer told us that we can choose any beer we wanted to drink. Mine was San Mig Super Dry kase gamay na ako dito. I even asked my cousin kung anong prizes para naman ma-motivate ako. We were the second group to finish. Strong teeth's team won. Kaso may daya! Hmf.. Tswe
After the game, was the announcement of the month's super stars. I was soo happy for markmark because he was nominated and was awarded an aksenchur umbrella. My master was also nominated and given a green water jug.
After that, we took wacky pictures of ourselves and palyed billiards. Me and master won. I was able to shoot 3 balls. This was the best part of the night...

12:30 am

2005-10-19T21:54:00.000-07:00

Yesterday was fun! I saw 3 of my highschool friends. Kahit na pinaghintay ko ang 2 Makati working girls ng 2 o 4 na oras ata. Sorry talaga. Kaya naman pinagbayad nila ako ng fare sa cab. Pinuntahan namin si Feyt na 7 months pregnant. And I was sooo happy to see them (Feyt and Badong) kase naman gumaganda sya, nakita ko sya na masaya, naramdaman ko (at nakita for that matter) ang pag-sipa ni Badong! Yes, Badong ang itatawag ko sa aking godson. Ako nga pala ang second Brutus to know na lalake ang baby nila Feyt at Resty. Samakatuwid, ako ang kanyang 2nd fairy godmother nya.

Nakadating kame sa bahay nila Feyt ng quarter to 10 ata un. Pinakain kame ng buko pandan, oishing maanghang, tinapay na may keso at coke. E kahit naman ano ang ibigay samin, susunggaban namin e. Sikmurang construction worker ata ito. NApag-usapan namin ang aming mga kalokohan noong kame ay nasa mataas na paaralan pa lamang. Namiss ko tuloy ang Don Bosco! Hay... Naalala namin ang pagpipigil ng utot ni Analyn habang kaharap si Sr. Joyce, ang Axis ng Brutus, ang paglalakad mula school hanggang Kalentong, ang pagpopose habang pagtawid nila Shelah at Feyt, ang ulam ni Feyt sa loob ng isang taon: tapa at patatas na may konting corned beef at kung anu-ano pa. Nakita ko ang aking kabataan (Naks! Parang ang tanda no?) sa magandang ngiti, tawa at halakhak ng aking mga kaibigan. Naisip ko tuloy na sana ay bata na lang ako ulit at walang inaalalang planned end date, PFF, sweldo, programa at kung anu-ano pang mga sanhi ng pagsulpot ng aking mga pimplets, wrinklets, veins at split-ends.

Habang kame pala kame ay nagkukwentuhan ng aking mga kaibigan, napagkaisahan namin na kame ay mag-M.A. Si Jacklyn kase ay nakaka-15 units na ng Literature sa Losol. Si Shelah ay mag-aapply pa lamang at sasabay ako sa kanya. Sa December siguro kame mag-aaply pagkakuha ng 13th month para may pang bayad ng tuition. Iniisip ni Shelah na magLit din o Int'l Studies. Ako, naisip ko na: International Studies. Dati kase naisip ko kung mag-crash course ba ako sa programming o kaya naman ay IT related. Ngunit masasabi ko na eto talaga ang gusto ko: ang makapagtrabaho sa ADB. Shiyet... At maging Diplomat! Wolongyo~ Di ako makapaniwala na pinaplano ko na ang buhay ko! Wahhh... At mag-aapply pala ako ng kahit na anong percent na scholarship. Para naman may matira sa pera ko. Ngunit bakit Losol? Pwede naman UP para libre. Naisip namin kase na sa Losol pinakamabilis. Period. Kung ano man yun ay bahala na kayo mag-isip.

Umuwi kame ng 12:30 ng madaling araw akalain nyo un. Bingo na ko sa aking itay. Monday 11:00 pm, Tuesday 10:20 pm, at Wednesday 12:30 am. Nihindi ko na nga nakikita ang aking tatay at kapatid dahil maaga silang umuuwi at umaga na ko nakakauwi! Anlabo. Ngayon naman ay malamang umuwi na naman ako ng nakakandado ang gate dahil ako ay may lakad na naman. At bukas ay ang inaantabayan na teambuilding! Kamusta naman ang night life at eyesacks!

Sana naman buong araw ako makatulog sa Sabado. Sa Linggo naman ay dadalo ako ng binyag ng aking unang unang inaanak. Si Louise Fiel, anak ni Bhambhie! Yipee! Naiimagine ko na si Fiel at si Badong kapit kapit kame ng kamay papuntang Carnival! Yahoo! Hay... Sana bata na lang ulit ako. =(

Wololong...

2005-10-05T23:14:00.000-07:00

Gusto ko lamang i-share ang mga walang kakwenta kwentang pinag-uusapan namin ng aking batsmeyt sa IM...Kinakailangan na protektahan ang kliyente kung kaya't papalitan ko ang ibang mga salita! :) Yun ay kung mapapalitan ko...

mark: familiar ka sa XXXX
ako: bakit?
mark: may tiket ako na may nabanggit na XXXX website, di ko alam kung ano un?
ako: di ko din alam XXXX na website e
mark: ngek, kala ko alam mo..
ako: alam ko XXXX.. pero di ko lam website
mark: ano ung XXXX?
ako: at hindi ako expert
mark: para sa payment ata yan e
mark: eto ung tanong ng user: If I am looking for XXXXXX which failed in transmission to the XXXX web site, what information do I need to focus on?
ako: hehehe..
ako: di ko GET
ako: sorry
ako: im just an alipin saguiguilid
mark: ok sige..
ako: ikaw alam mo?
mark: hindi nga e..
ako: aok,, kala ko kc alam mo e, papaexplain ko sana sayo

Eto pa...
At mukang galit na sya...

mark: dianne, may access ka sa XXXX website?
ako: wala
ako: heheh
mark: oki..
ako: anong website?
mark: XXXX
ako: ano ngang site?
mark: XXXX website nga..
mark: di ko alam kung ano dun.
ako: ikaw ba may access?
mark: wala nga, kaya nga nagtatanong ako, XXX (team namin) lang daw ang may access dun..

Last na...
Ubos na ang pasensya...
Bago nya ko pinuntahan sa cub ko para batukan ;)

mark: naka-handle ka na ng idoc?
ako: tingin lang

At jan po nagtatapos ang kwento!
Mabuhay ang Pilipinas!

Happy 4th Monthsary SapPs-SapPs fwendsheeps!

2005-09-22T17:10:00.000-07:00

A Poem

I start my day by sitting on a chair,
Giving my monitor a hard, cold stare,
By evening I m done with another coding
Oh! this has become a routine so boring.

Like all, I entered this field with great hope
Jobs were many and there was plenty of scope
Dreams of joining the likes of Gates
And a chance to make money in the states.

Thus, I entered the world of bytes
Only to realize that reality bites
Coz a programmer's life, isn't all that cozy
The bed of software, isn't all that rosy.

Seeing the monitor all day and night
Have taken the power of my eyesight
Late to bed n late to rise
Has made me wealthy, but not healthy and wise.

Working holidays, busy weekends
No time for family, no time for friends
My job steals most of my time
Helplessly, I watch this crime.

Just for few bits of money,
I forgot those moments with my honey
When I should be out - having fun
I' m telling a computer, what's to be done.

I hate you, yet I cant get away,
Coz, I need the money you pay,
God, to thee I pray
If there be one - show me the way.

>>>>> - Anonymous Programmer -<<<<

Magbakasyon ka naman!

2005-09-21T17:27:00.000-07:00

Para sa lahat ng Empleyado ng Buwan, Taon, Dekada o kahit siglo pa yan!

>October 29 is a Saturday

>October 30 is a Sunday

>October 31 (Monday) is sandwiched by two non-working days November 1 is
All Saints Day

>November 2 is All Souls Day

>November 3 is Eidl Feitre (the Last day of Ramadan, which officially
is a legal holiday)

>November 4 Friday is a regular workin' day...but would you
want to go to work on a Friday after a long break?

>November 5 is a Saturday

>November 6 is a Sunday

Spread the good news.*:)

Two of my favorite PnE songs

2005-09-21T17:11:00.000-07:00

Moon Song
Parokya Ni Edgar

where cuold i possibly be guided
this eloquent sound I'm being reminded
my saviour sun i need to follow
to destiny somewhat may be hollow
into fields of sorrow and souls i have borrow
of spear and change and neglect arrows
in the midst of a path so narrow
shield me now i'll be back tomorrow

moonlight seems to be my warden
i'll set still but my mind will travel
moonlight catches me in silence
it keeps me up and it keepsme dreaming
where could i be guided
it is possible that i'm being blinded
my saviour sun i need to follow

One And Only You
Parokya ni Edgar

It took one look
Then forever lay out in front of me
One smile then I died
Only to be revived by you
There I was thought I had everything
Figured out, goes to show
Just how much i know
'Bout the way life, place out

I take one step away
Then I'll find myself
Coming back to you
My one and only one and
Now i know that i know
Not a thing that I know
Except the fact that i'm yours
And that you are mine
Oh..., that you told me that
This wouldn't be easy
And no, i'm not one

I am not perfect!

2005-09-21T00:21:00.000-07:00

hmmm... kaninong istorya kaya ito?
9202005
someone's mad at me. and i don't have a clue why she is acting weird. it was probably something that i have said or done that she didn't like. as i recall all that transpired between us, everything went well until we had a meeting. it's probably something that i have said. stupid me! me and my big mouth. i'm not tactless. i dont want to blame myself. i dont understand why she was pissed off when i just said what was bothering me and that i have mentioned it to her a couple of times before. was it bacause someone else was listening? i would never ever want to humiliate her. i never meant to hurt her. i just hope and pray that she was just having one of her mood swings yesterday. (but then again she was fairly nice to everyone else except me) and that everything will be back to normal again today. or was it because she was tired of answering my stupid and senseless, unrelated questions?
i am eating chocolates at this moment. chocolates make me happy. i practically and literally drag myself from bed. because im scared of going to the office, and scared to face her. as i was preparing this morning, my mom asked me if i had a bad day at the office. i said no. am i that transparent? im not used to this feeling. i didnt have enemies at school. yesterday, i was reaching out to her. i asked her if she wanted me to buy her something at SB. and she never said anything. she just tilted her head. when i came back, i offered her sampaloc, she just tilted her head again. and when she was about to go home, she just left without asking me if i wanted to come. she normally asks me if i want to come. she even asked me one day to wait for her. i just hope she's not on SL or VL today. or i just hope that she hasn't mentioned this to any of our officemates (yet). at this moment, i am
thinking of writing a resignation letter. i can't handle this. this is too much for me. i want to scream, i want to cry, i just wish this was just one big bad dream. she's arriving in a few minutes. i think i am not ready to see her. if ever she gets nice again, i'll definitely be careful with everything that ill say and do. i am also willing to apologize for all its worth even if it turns out that it's was not my fault. but in effect ill not join her circle of friends, i won't try to get close to her again. it would all be work related nothing else. i am going to hide back to my shell again. i just hope this doesnt go on for the next year or so. God help me.
09212005
Guess what she talked to me yesterday. But it was again as ive said, work related. Before i left she was nice to me and told me that she'll help me with my new ticket. I was so happy..
I thought she realized what she was doing to me.. some of our kacubicle asked me why i was so quiet.. maybe that did it. but then again i was wrong. she's on SL today. i just realized that i should not force her to like me again. if she can't deal with me. fine. if she doesn't like me that's fine with me too... kung ayaw wag pilitin. muka naman akong tanga nun kung ganun nilalapit ko ang sarili ko sa kanya..good luck na lang sakin!

Por ol da labers awt der

2005-09-20T17:07:00.000-07:00

PARTNERS AND MARRIAGE
By Eduardo Jose E. Calasanz

I have never met a man who didn't want to be loved. But I have seldommet a man who didn't fear marriage. Something about the closure seemsconstricting, not enabling. Marriage seems easier to understand forwhat it cuts out of our lives than for what it makes possible within ourlives.When I was younger this fear immobilized me. I did not want to make amistake. I saw my friends get married for reasons of social acceptability,or sexual fever, or just because they thought it was the logical thing todo. Then I watched, as they and their partners became embittered and pettyin their dealings witheach other. I looked at older couples and saw, at best, mutual tolerationof eachother. I im agined a lifetime of loveless nights and bickering and could notimagine subjecting myself or someone else to such a fate.And yet, on rare occasions, I would see old couples who somehow seemedto glow in each other's presence. They seemed really in love, not justdependent upon each other and tolerant of each other's foibles. It wasan astounding sight, and it seemed impossible. How, I asked myself,can they have survived so many years of sameness, so much irritationat the others habits? What keeps love alive in them, when most of usseem unable to even stay together, much less love each other?The central secret seems to be in choosing well. There is something tothe claim of fundamental compatibility. Good people can create a badrelationship, even though they both dearly want the relationship tosucceed. It is important to find someone with whom you can create a<>good relationship from the outset. Unfortunately, it is hard to seeclearly in the early stages.Sexual hunger draws you to each other and colors the way you seeyourselves together. It blinds you to the thousands of little thingsby which relationships eventually survive or fail. You need to find away to see beyond this initial overwhelming sexual fascination. Somepeople choose to involve themselves sexually and ride out the mostheated period of sexual attraction in order to see what is on theother side.This can work, but it can also leave a trail of wounded hearts. Othersdeny the sexual side altogether in an attempt to get to know eachother apart from their sexuality. But they cannotsee clearly, becausethe presence of unfulfilled sexual desire looms solarge that it keepsthem from having any normal perception of whatlife would be liketogether.The truly l ucky people are the ones who manage tobecome long-timefriends before they realize they are attracted toeach other. They getto know each other's laughs, passions, sadness,and fears. They seeeach other at their worst and at their best. Theyshare time togetherbefore they get swept up into the entanglingintimacy of theirsexuality.
This is the ideal, but not often possible. If youfall under the spellof your sexual attraction immediately, you need tolook beyond it forother keys to compatibility. One of these islaughter. Laughter tellsyou how much you will enjoy each others companyover the long term.If your laughter together is good and healthy, andnot at the expenseof others, then you have a healthy relationship tothe world. Laughteris the child of surprise. If you can make eachother laugh, you canalways surprise each other. And if you can alwayssurprise each other,you can always keep the world around you new.Beware of a relationship in which there is nolaughter.. Even the mostintimate relationships based only on seriousnesshave a tendency toturn sour. Over time, sharing a common seriousviewpoint on the worldtends to turn you against those who do not sharethe same viewpoint,and your relationship can become based on beingcritical together.After laughter, look for a partner who deals withthe world in a wayyou respect. When two people first get together,they tend to seetheir relationship as existing only in the space between the two ofthem. They find each other endlessly fascinating,and the overwhelmingpower of the emotions they are sharing obscuresthe outside world. Asthe relationship ages and grows, the outside worldbecomes importantagain. If your partner treats people orcircumstances in a way youcan't accept, you will inevitably come to grief.Look at the way shecares for others and deals with the daily affairsof life. If thatmakes you love her more, your love will grow. Ifit does not, becareful. If you do not respect the way you eachdeal with the worldaround you, eventually the two of you will notrespect each other.Look also at how your partner confronts themysteries of life. We liveon the cusp of poetry and practicality, and thereal life of the heartresides in the poetic. If one of you is deeplyaffected by the mysteryof the unseen in life and relationships, while theother is drawn onlyto the literal and the practical, you must takecare that the distancedoes not become an unbridgeable gap that leavesyou each feelingisolated and misunderstood.There are many other keys, but you must find themby yourself. We allhave unchangeable parts of our hearts that we willnot betray andprivate commitments to a vision of life that wewill not deny. If youfall in love with someone who cannot nourish thoseinviolable parts ofyou, or if you cannot nourish them in her, youwill find yourselvesgrowing further apart until you live in separateworlds where youshare the business of life, but never touch eachother where the heart lives and dreams. From there it is only a smallleap to the catalogingof petty hurts and daily failures that leaves somany couples bitterand unsatisfied with their mates.So choose carefully and well. If you do, you willhave chosen apartner with whom you can grow, and then the realmiracle of marriagecan take place in your hearts. I pick my wordscarefully when I speakof a miracle. But I think it is not too strong aword.There is a miracle in marriage. It is calledtransformation.Transformation is one of the most common events ofnature. The seedbecomes the flower. The cocoon becomes thebutterfly. Winter becomesspring and love becomes a child. We never questionthese, because wesee them around us every day. To us they are notmiracles, though ifwe did not know them they would be impossible tobelieve.Marriage is a transformation we choose to make.Our love is plantedlike a seed, and in time it begins to flower. Wecannot know theflower that will blossom, but we can be sure thata bloom will come.If you have chosen carefully and wisely, the bloomwill be good. Ifyou have chosen poorly or for the wrong reason,the bloom will beflawed. We are quite willing to accept the realityof negativetransformation in a marriage. It was negativetransformation that always had me terrified of the bitter marriagesthat I feared when I was younger. It never occurred to me to question the dark miracle that transformed love into harshne ss and bitterness.Yet I was unable to accept the possibility that the first heat of love could be transformed into something positive that was actually deeper and more meaningful than the heat of fresh passion. All Icould believe in wasthe power of this passion and the fear that whenit cooled I would be left with something lesser and bitter. But there is positive transformation as well. Likenegativetransformation, it results from a slow accretion of little things. But instead of death by a thousand blows, it is growth by a thousand touches of love. Two histories intermingle. Two separate beings, two separate presence, two separate consciousness cometogether and sharea view of life that passes before them. Theyremain separate, but theyalso become one.There is an expansion of awareness, not a closure and a constriction,as I had once feared. This is not to say thatthere is not tension and there are not traps. Tension and traps are part ofevery choice of life, from celibate to monogamous to having multiple lovers. Each choice contains within it the lingering doubt that the road not taken somehow more fruitful and exciting, and each becomes dulled to the richness that it alone contains.But only marriage allows life to deepen and expandand be leavened bythe knowledge that two have chosen, against allodds, to become one.Those who live together without marriage can know the pleasure ofshared company, but there is a specific gravity inthe marriage commitment that deepens that experience intosomething richer and morecomplex.So do not fear marriage, just as you should not rush into it for the wrong reasons. It is an act of faith and it contains within it the power of transformation. If you believe in yourheart that you havefound someone with whom you are able to grow, ifyou have sufficientfaith that you can resist the endless attractionof the road not takenand the partner not chosen, if you have thestrength of heart to embrace the cycles and seasons that your love willexperience, thenyou may be ready to seek the miracle that marriageoffers. If not, then wait. The easy grace of a marriage well made is worth your patience. When the time comes, a thousand flowers willbloom...endlessly.

Para sa ating lahat na nagfefeeling!

2005-09-06T22:08:00.000-07:00

May the fleas of a million dogs infest the butt of the person who spoils your day and may his arms grow too short to scratch his butt! Have a stressfree day!

First Time

2005-07-22T17:59:00.000-07:00

Just checking.
I really had no intenstions of making/writing/publishing a bloga beacuse I'm not a good writer plus I'm not used to people reading my 'life'. I was forced because I've been dying to leave a comment in abbya's entry. Anyway, I just found out a few minutes ago that Mr. Suave is not girlfriendless! Sigh..

Yesterday was fun! We (Abby, Jill, Ice n Icar w/o Jazz and Hubbey) went tigidigtigid horsie-horsie! Hahaha.. Can't wait to see my Kampanera Pictures!

I will really miss my fwendsheeps.. Hope to see them all soon.

Didn't I say Im a lousy writer?!